Today is TWLOHA (To Write Love on Her arms). This is to raise awareness for those teens who are depressed/suicidal and who are cutters. What exactly does the word “love” really mean? Some say it’s a term of affection, others would say it’s a feeling of deep respect. Here’s what I translate love as: Love is when someone makes you feel like you belong, have purpose, have hope, and you know that no matter what happens or what you do, they will always be there for you. This love carries people through the hardest times in life, and the reason people start cutting is because that love isn’t there. They’re hurting so much and feel so alone that they want to feel something, anything. So they choose to feel pain. They need to release their emotions somehow, and if there’s no one to talk to and share their hurts with, they choose to cut. Everybody needs someone there for them to give them this love. There are so many people all around us hurting, What are you doing to help these people? Today you could make a difference. Today you could save someone’s life.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
You try your hardest
What happens when you try your hardest, and nobody knows about it? It's never recognized and you never get credit for it. You don't want to say "Look at this awesome thing I did!" because then that would be conceited. Say you bust your butt in baseball practice, but the coach always sits you on the bench? Or say you work the hardest at your job, but because another co-worker kisses up to the boss, they get all the praise?
News flash. Life's not fair and it never will be. I struggle with this concept on a daily basis. It doesn't make sense that God would allow it. BUT! Here's what I have learned. Our efforts and struggles, are not hidden from God. He sees it all. He cheers us on in the background. If his opinion is the only one that truly counts, why are we trying so hard to please others? We should do our absolute best in everything and not just the stuff that will be recognized because we're doing everything for God, and not man.
If someone has wronged us we shouldn't take justice into our own hands in order to "make it fair". He tells us "Revenge is mine. I will avenge thee." So we know, at some point in time (The RIGHT time, and only He knows what time that will be) He will correct the wrong. We may never see it happen, but it will.
Life may suck, but you have to have a good attitude and know that It'll all work out in the end. It always does and always will. We need to do all we can to live the way Christ wants us to so we can hear these words when we get to heaven, "Well done good and faithful servant."
News flash. Life's not fair and it never will be. I struggle with this concept on a daily basis. It doesn't make sense that God would allow it. BUT! Here's what I have learned. Our efforts and struggles, are not hidden from God. He sees it all. He cheers us on in the background. If his opinion is the only one that truly counts, why are we trying so hard to please others? We should do our absolute best in everything and not just the stuff that will be recognized because we're doing everything for God, and not man.
If someone has wronged us we shouldn't take justice into our own hands in order to "make it fair". He tells us "Revenge is mine. I will avenge thee." So we know, at some point in time (The RIGHT time, and only He knows what time that will be) He will correct the wrong. We may never see it happen, but it will.
Life may suck, but you have to have a good attitude and know that It'll all work out in the end. It always does and always will. We need to do all we can to live the way Christ wants us to so we can hear these words when we get to heaven, "Well done good and faithful servant."
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
No pain sounds tempting, but...
Remember a time that you were hurting really bad. Emotionally of physically, doesn't matter. Didn't you wish that you couldn't feel it? NEVER wish that. Why? Well I'm glad you asked. Here's my experience with this situation:
I went through depression when I was 14 & 15 years old. It felt like no one loved me and I thought I was the ugliest and fattest thing on the planet (obviously I wasn't). The pain got to be too much to bear, so I started denying it, saying things like "It doesn't hurt" and "I can't feel anything" over and over again. It's a dangerous thing when you can control your emotions like that. After a while I started believing myself. Pretty soon I was numb to pain, physical and emotional. It got to the point that I was an emotion-less blob. As time passed, I started to realize something. Not only could I not feel pain, I also couldn't feel joy, love, or happiness. I thought that denying myself feelings would free myself, but instead I became a prisoner behind a wall that blocked all feelings, good and bad. That "emotion-less" state was one of the worst times of my life. It had a far deeper and longer lasting effect on me than any type of pain I had experienced. It was pure torture. Finally, I cried out to God.
It's been almost 3 years now, and I'm still not back to where I was before all this, but I'm a whole lot closer than I was. It's a daily process, taking one step at a time. Next time, think twice before you wish your pain away. Don't do what I did. Ask God to help you. He always does. I wish I had called on him sooner.
I went through depression when I was 14 & 15 years old. It felt like no one loved me and I thought I was the ugliest and fattest thing on the planet (obviously I wasn't). The pain got to be too much to bear, so I started denying it, saying things like "It doesn't hurt" and "I can't feel anything" over and over again. It's a dangerous thing when you can control your emotions like that. After a while I started believing myself. Pretty soon I was numb to pain, physical and emotional. It got to the point that I was an emotion-less blob. As time passed, I started to realize something. Not only could I not feel pain, I also couldn't feel joy, love, or happiness. I thought that denying myself feelings would free myself, but instead I became a prisoner behind a wall that blocked all feelings, good and bad. That "emotion-less" state was one of the worst times of my life. It had a far deeper and longer lasting effect on me than any type of pain I had experienced. It was pure torture. Finally, I cried out to God.
It's been almost 3 years now, and I'm still not back to where I was before all this, but I'm a whole lot closer than I was. It's a daily process, taking one step at a time. Next time, think twice before you wish your pain away. Don't do what I did. Ask God to help you. He always does. I wish I had called on him sooner.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
I've been tagged?
Mk, I have no idea how to do this. lol So here's my best shot at it
I've been "awarded" by two bloggers as one of their top 10 blogs. =]
So sorry this has taken me so long
I really don't have favorite blogs, so I'll just name my Ultimate fav. lol (don't worry I'll add to it later when I have time)
1. Get fuzzy
http://getfuzzyarchive.blogspot.com/
Ok so I have to list 17 random things about me, since that's my age
1: I am a redhead
2: Bad acting annoys the snot out of me
3: I love to read
4: I want to travel to Australia some day.
5: I love taking pictures
6: I text like there's no tomorrow
7: I have a kindred spirit XD
8: I am EXTREMELY sarcastic
9: Get fuzzy is my favorite ever. I love Bucky Katt
10: I eat too much, yet I somehow remain the weight I should be (without exercise I might add)
11: I love sports (snowboarding, tennis, baseball, surfing, etc.)
12: My favorite movie is Les Miserables
13: Energy drinks and caffeine have no affect on me. Sad but true
14: The sun drain's my energy
15: Most people think I look 12 (which is beyond annoying)
16: I don't get sick easily (I went 4 years without getting sick once)
17: I'm glad this is the last one.
OK done. :D now I should do some homework...
I've been "awarded" by two bloggers as one of their top 10 blogs. =]
So sorry this has taken me so long
I really don't have favorite blogs, so I'll just name my Ultimate fav. lol (don't worry I'll add to it later when I have time)
1. Get fuzzy
http://getfuzzyarchive.blogspot.com/
Ok so I have to list 17 random things about me, since that's my age
1: I am a redhead
2: Bad acting annoys the snot out of me
3: I love to read
4: I want to travel to Australia some day.
5: I love taking pictures
6: I text like there's no tomorrow
7: I have a kindred spirit XD
8: I am EXTREMELY sarcastic
9: Get fuzzy is my favorite ever. I love Bucky Katt
10: I eat too much, yet I somehow remain the weight I should be (without exercise I might add)
11: I love sports (snowboarding, tennis, baseball, surfing, etc.)
12: My favorite movie is Les Miserables
13: Energy drinks and caffeine have no affect on me. Sad but true
14: The sun drain's my energy
15: Most people think I look 12 (which is beyond annoying)
16: I don't get sick easily (I went 4 years without getting sick once)
17: I'm glad this is the last one.
OK done. :D now I should do some homework...
Friday, January 9, 2009
My Love Language
So, a while back my church did a Sunday school class series on the different love languages. It was really fascinating. It made me realize a few things about myself.
Here's a brief review on what a love language is: A Love language is divided into 2 parts, giving love, and receiving love. I will focus on the latter. The love we receive goes into a "love tank" and the love we give comes out of that same "tank." When a person does not receive love, that "tank" gets low, and after a while the "tank" becomes empty. During this time, a person can become bitter, and start rejecting any love that might come in.
My love language is Words of Affirmation, meaning, I "receive" love in the form of compliments.
I believe my trust issues triggered everything (refer to previus post). Because I don't trust people, I involuntarily reject love. When someone gives me a compliment I get excited, and it makes me happy for a brief moment, but then this voice insisde me says "They didn't mean what they said. They were just being nice." My love tank wasn't getting filled up and this (apparently) in turn caused me to reject love even more. This made me realize why I am such a cynical realist.
When you reject love, you're just digging a bigger pit of bitterness for yourself because the love tank never receives love and therefore stays empty.
If you read my previous post, you'd know that I do not trust people at all. BUT, according to this, I need to have at least a little trust in people. We are commanded to love in the Bible. And if we have no love in our love tank, then we cannot give love to God and others.
So what I've learned is that I need to take what people say, and take it as a bit of love they are giving me. And If my love tank is getting low, It might mean that I am not giving enough love to others. Love works both ways. Think about it. If you poured love into someone 24/7, but they never did anything back would you keep pouring love into them? Granted, some people would, but not many.
hm...idk what to do my next post on...
-Cosette
Here's a brief review on what a love language is: A Love language is divided into 2 parts, giving love, and receiving love. I will focus on the latter. The love we receive goes into a "love tank" and the love we give comes out of that same "tank." When a person does not receive love, that "tank" gets low, and after a while the "tank" becomes empty. During this time, a person can become bitter, and start rejecting any love that might come in.
My love language is Words of Affirmation, meaning, I "receive" love in the form of compliments.
I believe my trust issues triggered everything (refer to previus post). Because I don't trust people, I involuntarily reject love. When someone gives me a compliment I get excited, and it makes me happy for a brief moment, but then this voice insisde me says "They didn't mean what they said. They were just being nice." My love tank wasn't getting filled up and this (apparently) in turn caused me to reject love even more. This made me realize why I am such a cynical realist.
When you reject love, you're just digging a bigger pit of bitterness for yourself because the love tank never receives love and therefore stays empty.
If you read my previous post, you'd know that I do not trust people at all. BUT, according to this, I need to have at least a little trust in people. We are commanded to love in the Bible. And if we have no love in our love tank, then we cannot give love to God and others.
So what I've learned is that I need to take what people say, and take it as a bit of love they are giving me. And If my love tank is getting low, It might mean that I am not giving enough love to others. Love works both ways. Think about it. If you poured love into someone 24/7, but they never did anything back would you keep pouring love into them? Granted, some people would, but not many.
hm...idk what to do my next post on...
-Cosette
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Prayer and Faith
So I have this problem. I don't trust people. Like at all. Whenever someone tells me I'm pretty, or says "Good Job" I always think they are lying. I've moved alot, and have had a zillion people come and go in my life and I've just learned not to really get emotionally attatched. I've been dissapointed by almost everyone I've known, so that's why I don't trust people. But it hit me the other day. Do I really trust God? I know I believe in him and I'm so thankful for everything He's done for me, but do I really trust Him with everything that's in me? Whenever I pray, I really don't expect for what I've asked to really happen. Habbit? I think so. I set myself up for dissapointment so often that I'm starting to do that with God.
Why did the disciples and apostles and all the other believers in the New Testament have miracles happen? Why were their prayers almost always answered with a yes? It was because they prayed with faith. They knew God had the power to answer their prayers and they believed that he would. Granted, God does not always answer our prayers the way we want Him to, but we should still be praying with faith. Prayers without faith are only half-hearted prayers.
While it's good that our faith and trust shouldn't be in mere humans, we still need to have trust in God. Only He can see the big picture and we need to trust that He's got it all under control because He really does. It may feel like our world is falling apart and nothing is going right, but the Bible says he only gives us what we can handle. We may not think we can handle it, but He gives us the strength to go on when we don't have any strength left. And through our trials, we become stronger, more secure, and we aquire the ability to help those going through the same situations.
Just some thoughts swirling through my head. haha. Comment!
-Cosette
Why did the disciples and apostles and all the other believers in the New Testament have miracles happen? Why were their prayers almost always answered with a yes? It was because they prayed with faith. They knew God had the power to answer their prayers and they believed that he would. Granted, God does not always answer our prayers the way we want Him to, but we should still be praying with faith. Prayers without faith are only half-hearted prayers.
While it's good that our faith and trust shouldn't be in mere humans, we still need to have trust in God. Only He can see the big picture and we need to trust that He's got it all under control because He really does. It may feel like our world is falling apart and nothing is going right, but the Bible says he only gives us what we can handle. We may not think we can handle it, but He gives us the strength to go on when we don't have any strength left. And through our trials, we become stronger, more secure, and we aquire the ability to help those going through the same situations.
Just some thoughts swirling through my head. haha. Comment!
-Cosette
Monday, January 5, 2009
For starters...
I am a senior in high school and I am highly critical of everything I see, yet I am not overly critical to the point of arrogance. I can find joy in the small things, and hope behind the shadows. I like to write stories, poems, and other tidbits, but this blog will be used for the sole purpose of getting my thoughts out on certain situations. Hope you enjoy it. Comments are Love.
-Cosette
-Cosette
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