No pain sounds tempting, but...

Remember a time that you were hurting really bad. Emotionally of physically, doesn't matter. Didn't you wish that you couldn't feel it? NEVER wish that. Why? Well I'm glad you asked. Here's my experience with this situation:

I went through depression when I was 14 & 15 years old. It felt like no one loved me and I thought I was the ugliest and fattest thing on the planet (obviously I wasn't). The pain got to be too much to bear, so I started denying it, saying things like "It doesn't hurt" and "I can't feel anything" over and over again. It's a dangerous thing when you can control your emotions like that. After a while I started believing myself. Pretty soon I was numb to pain, physical and emotional. It got to the point that I was an emotion-less blob. As time passed, I started to realize something. Not only could I not feel pain, I also couldn't feel joy, love, or happiness. I thought that denying myself feelings would free myself, but instead I became a prisoner behind a wall that blocked all feelings, good and bad. That "emotion-less" state was one of the worst times of my life. It had a far deeper and longer lasting effect on me than any type of pain I had experienced. It was pure torture. Finally, I cried out to God.

It's been almost 3 years now, and I'm still not back to where I was before all this, but I'm a whole lot closer than I was. It's a daily process, taking one step at a time. Next time, think twice before you wish your pain away. Don't do what I did. Ask God to help you. He always does. I wish I had called on him sooner.

I've been tagged?

Mk, I have no idea how to do this. lol So here's my best shot at it

I've been "awarded" by two bloggers as one of their top 10 blogs. =]



So sorry this has taken me so long





I really don't have favorite blogs, so I'll just name my Ultimate fav. lol (don't worry I'll add to it later when I have time)








1. Get fuzzy

http://getfuzzyarchive.blogspot.com/



Ok so I have to list 17 random things about me, since that's my age

1: I am a redhead

2: Bad acting annoys the snot out of me

3: I love to read
4: I want to travel to Australia some day.
5: I love taking pictures
6: I text like there's no tomorrow
7: I have a kindred spirit XD
8: I am EXTREMELY sarcastic
9: Get fuzzy is my favorite ever. I love Bucky Katt
10: I eat too much, yet I somehow remain the weight I should be (without exercise I might add)
11: I love sports (snowboarding, tennis, baseball, surfing, etc.)
12: My favorite movie is Les Miserables
13: Energy drinks and caffeine have no affect on me. Sad but true
14: The sun drain's my energy
15: Most people think I look 12 (which is beyond annoying)
16: I don't get sick easily (I went 4 years without getting sick once)
17: I'm glad this is the last one.

OK done. :D now I should do some homework...